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Hi. Things haven't been going too well and I like to tell myself that it's because growing up is difficult and that the transition from teen to ty is just designed to be the point where you realize how utterly unaware you are. But that would be a lie. I've seen people, my friends, who have handled the transition. People who have already embarked upon the journey to not-being-a-kid-anymore-sville and I'm still here, without a ticket. Or a clue.
The worst part of all of it is probably that, even though it definitely isn't so, it feels like you're the only idiot that's in this fix. Kids who seemed like they were going nowhere, kids with worse grades than yours and kids who hadn't decided or thought about these things either. You see a few Facebook posts or hear about them from a friend and realize that even they managed to walk in a certain direction. I could've done the same too. Just applied to a university for absolutely any course and hey, who knows, maybe I would've loved it there. The reason I didn't go for it was because I hadn't found my 'calling'. And as stupid as that sounds I'm still going for it. I'm currently striving for something that might cost me a year but ultimately seems like the right decision. Trust me when I say a gap year ISN'T as glamorous as they make it out to be in the movies. No travelling or exciting adventures. It's stressful, uncertain, frustrating and seeing all of your classmates be one step ahead of you really starts to take a toll on your nerves. So, for the love of all that is pure and holy on this God forsaken planet, get your shit together before you start wearing big boy pants. Okay, maybe you can take a few more years to figure things out but don't do what I did. Don't prolong something that needs to be done right at the time when you need to decide what subjects you want to opt for. Do a little boring research, take a few bogus online career quizzes, talk to people about it and most importantly, get off your overconfident, self-assured butt and work hard. Get to know your potential and start navigating through a wide, twisted maze that'll only get narrower and less complicated as you continue on over the years until finally you're exactly where you wanted to be. Or somewhere just as good.
See, the cool thing about having your shit together is that when high school is over you get to watch the chaos that unfolds when kids like me realize that there are no grades left to be promoted to. How do I know anything about having my shit together? I don't. But that's okay because I don't know a lot of things right now.

Like this awesome story about 'Tokyo, China' that I've reeeeally wanted to find out about for a while now........